Post by Alexa Raven on May 1, 2013 14:22:03 GMT -5
Journal Entry for May 1st,2013
Well today is the first of May and I would like to wish everyone a happt May and it's finally spring time. Not that I dislike the winter months but this year I got a bit tired of shoveling snow and also of having to wear shoes or slippers in my house because the hard wood floors are cold in winter. I am used to actually not wearing shoes indoors at home but I moved last October to a nice northern state from sunny Florida and believe me it's been an adjustment.
I digress however as I wanted to say happy spring and before someone points out it's been spring since April well I did not actually get around to making a jhournal entry for April so Happy belayed Easter and all that April showers buisness.
Today is May 1st. Today I have been making a video mostly since 8 am my time EST in the USA and I finished making it at 2pm. At this moment it is 2:48 P.M. and I also added a thread for video making and I am writing this one right now. To say today has been a lazy internet day is obvious as I have yet to clean my kitchen as I should be doing and instead have decided to sit here and relax and do the minimal.
My daughter this morninhg before she went to school thought she was fgoing to be a smart alec and tell me it was May 1st and in to which I said.
"I know your birthday is in twenty five more days and I bet you are excited."
To which she did get excited and told me of alot of hings she wants for her birthday. Now normally I go out and try to get her what she wants but I am not working right now and so I can't promise her things but I have told her I would look for them. So while I was sitting here and during searching for photos and resizing them earlier I came across the major thing she wants the most..
$119.95 on amazon.com and the item is used! Why so much? I'll tell you they aren't in stores. i went to several stores including Walmart to see if we have it locally and no. So what am I to do? I am thinking of calling her Grandmother(My Mother) And seeing if they havee them at Toys R us or Target back in florida and if they do asking her to send it to Britt for her birthday.
If not I have already told my daughter that maybe Santa will bring it to her if she is extra good. I have already scraped and saved enough to get her some art things and she's going to be twelve so I also got her a kit to make bracelets with beads etc at the local craft shop. So atleast there is something.
It's 3:08 in the afternoon and sadly I started smoking again. So I went out to take my uncle james dogs out and well i smoke outside. I am not happy as it is really a filthy addiction but there are worse things I could be doing. I know I feel like I failed myself with it as I did start quitting in March on the first and here two months later I light up my first cigarette since then. I am going to try and quit again but i figure that i should be honest with myself about it.
Also I think I would like to share myself with others as I feel it may help others to see i'm just a person like everyone else. I'm 38 years old and i'm not perfect and or normal and i embrace that and celebrate that.
Normal people scare me because they are lying to themselves i feel as no one is normal. Everyone is different and unique and therefore thers is no normal other than I wash my hands everytime I use the bathroom and to quote a line from the show Frazier. That is my healthy superstition lol!
okay so why am I doing this exactly sharing my stupid life? Life is what you make of it right and I figure why not? I'm not perfect and maybe you know admitting that and not caring about it and being able to share that with other people can help someone or just entertain people for a bit.
I wish i was working too. I actually miss it and the economy is crap here so yeah I need money don't we all? I am thinking of adding journal entries everyday now or will try to and just shoot the crap sorta speak. Just random stuff.
Well i have to log off for now as Britt comes home and Chance is leaving to go to Haley's house. My son is 17 his birthday is next month and he's graduating High school too. I'm proud of him. anyways later everyone!
Blessed be! And let's talk again soon shall we lol!
<3 Alexa
