Post by Alexa Raven on Jan 26, 2013 9:33:04 GMT -5
Draco was silent as he looked at the ocean and the sun going down. He could hear her coming closer and he knew there was nothing else left for him to say. He had laid it out for her. He had been honest about it all as well.
:: But why me? Not that I am actually offended or surprised I am good looking. But why now and why us together?”::
This though was running through his mind over and over as for an instant Hermione Granger in a white dress filled his mind. Then her in bed beneath him. Her breasts in his hands and him making her moan and cry out with pleasure as he kissed along her breasts and down to her navel…
“Draco... I want to do it tonight. “
Hermione spoke as she drew close to him and walked to look up at him. As she did this she made no notice that he was in thought and for a moment when he said nothing she laid her head on his chest and closed her eyes.
Draco’s arms came up and held her close to him as he looked down at her stunned. For a moment he grinned quietly to himself and thought she fit perfectly in his arms. Tonight... that one single word rang in his ears.
“Are you sure Hermione? Because as much as it is painful for me to deny myself the pleasure. I can wait a bit longer. It’s a big deal for a girl when she becomes a woman and takes a lover.”
As Draco said this he wondered if he sounded a bit like a Nancy boy because despite his normal attitude and behavior, he in that moment showed a sincerity and gentleness he had never showed anyone before.
Hermione gasped at his words because it was so unlike him to be gentle and tender and for a moment this side of him drew her in as she looked up at him now.“Yes, I’ve been a bit curious about how... Well how it would feel and if it was better than when I take care of my own urges by myself.”
As she said this she blushed and he chuckled.“Yes much better and believe me you will not want to go back to self-manipulating yourself after having a partner. As it is I am also getting tired of wanking my bits and how would you like to do it? We don’t have any candles or music as I have read that blokes use when seducing a maiden and taking her to be the first time.”
As Draco asked this Hermione didn’t know what to answer and she blurted out.“I don’t know maybe go slow and I do have some candles in my trunk. I mean until last night I had never seen a man naked before so are there other things we can do to work our way up to... you know..?”“Yeah there are Hermione, but if we’re going to do it you should be able to say it. We’re going to fuck, shag, screw and or bone. Not to be crude but we can try oral pleasing each other at first until you’re more comfortable with other things.”
Hermione was silent and yet when he began to talk about sex as it was nothing but putting on ones clothes or looking at their watch for a moment, a part of her wanted to scream at him it was a big deal. However she knew that he were just being honest and maybe a bit crude but honest. “Draco I... I don’t know I mean normally what would you do with a girl?”
Hermione asked this as she still was slightly embarrassed but also curious and his crude words before stroke a bit of something inside her. She was shocked to realize that his dirty words had made her feel more desire somehow.
Draco just chuckled a moment and he sighed after a minute or two. Draco turned her chin up to look at him. Their eyes locked and he replied.“Your first lesson is you should be more confident Granger. What would you like me to do? Admit it you’ve imagined us together. So what was I doing in your thoughts and dreams?”
Draco asked as he licked his lips a moment and looked her over. “I can’t say it’s a bit embarrassing Draco. Besides what makes you think I was imagining you and me doing things together it could have been someone else you know?”
She asked this for a moment feeling like she had to defend herself and her thoughts to him.“Would it help that I’ve been imagining you naked and hot and moaning and screaming my name Hermione. Though I never imagined you’d be a virgin I assumed you had already given it to Weasley or Potter by now.”
Hermione was shocked by his confession and slightly blushed but then she felt a little angry at his assumptions.“Why would I have sex with either Ron or Harry? I mean that would be disgusting! They are like my brothers it would be just weird to think about them like that.”
Draco nodded a moment in thought. “It would be the same I suppose with Pansy for me. I mean she might be a bit annoying at times but really she has been a good friend for a long time. I don’t even want to think about it it’s kind of creepy to be honest. “
Draco admitted this and he just relaxed a moment. Holding Hermione this closely was starting to have an effect on him but for the moment he was trying to keep calm.“Yeah kind of like that. I mean wait you and Pansy have never? Who have you done it with then if I may ask Draco?”
Hermione asked her curiosity getting the better of her and then she covered her hand with her mouth.“I’m sorry you don’t have to answer that just well I can’t help but be a little curious I’m sorry have I ruined the moment?”“Well to be frank and honest they were older than me. Its okay I probably should tell you a bit as we’re going to be lovers after all. You don’t know either of them. One was my French tutor her name was Babette and the other a girl I met in a club once. She was alright. It was nothing but sex and afterwards I left. There was no love involved with either of them.”
Hermione gave Draco a sort of sad look after hearing his explanation.
“Have you ever been in love yourself miss know it all?”
Draco then stepped back away from her as he then continued and replied.“Miss I have loving and perfect Muggle parents. Miss I am best friends to saint potter. I’m sure you’re surrounded by love but you know what? Not all of us have that luxury do we? Not all of us have a choice at times. So what I lost my virginity at fourteen to a woman my Father paid to make me a man!
At least I’ve not deluded myself into thinking I loved her or the girl in the club in Muggle London who looked a bit like... Who took me to her flat and kicked me out when she was done with me. So no Granger you have no right to question who I have loved or not because the simple fact is I’ve never been in love. I don’t know what it feels like and I’ll probably never be in love because I’m a bad cruel evil man.”
Hermione was silent as he went on and for a moment she felt angry but as he talked she listened and heard the sadness in his voice as well as a bit of anger towards her. “No, I’ve never been in love. I’m not the type of girl guys go for I’m not pretty or anything but a know it all bookworm right?”
As she said this she turned her back to him and looked out to the ocean and sighed frustrated as she watched the moonlight glide and cascade on the water’s surface.“My parents hate me; I am a little freak to them. So if you must know my father drinks and hits my mother because he says he has a freak for a daughter who he’s ashamed of. My parents are getting a divorce. I’m to blame because if I was normal we’d all be happy. So don’t start your shit about my life being fucking perfect because you have no fucking clue about me or my family.
Also Harry and Ron are not my friends anymore either and that was because… Because I... It’s useless to explain but know they hate me now too and I don’t really give a shit as it’s their problem not mine. Who knows everyone is probably throwing a party because the know it all ugly freak is not at Hogwarts. The only thing I loved is Crookshanks and he’s dead. My father ran him over with the automobile one day as he was drunk and he laughed about it. “
Hermione was wiping tears out of her eyes now and quietly sobbing. Her voice cracked however as she spoke belaying her sadness. Draco was stunned at her confession and for a moment said nothing. He saw she was shivering slightly or was it from silently crying?
He didn’t know but he went to grab his coat and put it around her shoulders as she was still staring at the ocean. “You’re not ugly and what do those Muggles know? I don’t hate Muggles anymore. I just don’t understand them and I could tell you a lot of things about being Lucius Malfoy’s son but it’s kind of personal. Just know that I’m a great disappointment to him. Also I could give a rat’s ass about your relationship with Potter and Weasley.
I’m sorry you lost your cat he was... Well he was not so bad I really didn’t know him but if you loved him he couldn’t have been bad. “
Draco knew she was listening and for some reason he couldn’t fathom he wanted to comfort this crying woman.“I hate when a strong woman cries because my Mother used to cry. I guess I love her but I never tell her. She’s the reason I became a monster. The reason Father is shamed of me. I mean I have had two women and they had to be paid to sleep with me Granger what does that say about me?”
As he told her this he wondered why he was revealing so much to this woman and giving her so much information to use against him later. “So we both have fucked up parents and friends who are probably not giving a shit where we are. At least we’re together and not alone in this. Don’t pity me as I know I’m not anything but a monster and a very bad man.
But I did what I did to protect my Mother and I don't regret it because I would do anything for my Mother. Except I couldn't kill the old man!”
A tear rolled down his cheek as he spoke and he closed his eyes and tried to stop the tears from flowing. He was surprised however when he felt her hand on his face and he opened his eyes to look down at her. “You’re not a monster Draco also it’s not your fault! I’m sure she knows you love her. I’m sure that she wouldn’t have wanted you to darken your soul by murdering Dumbledore.”
As Hermione said this she wiped a tear off his face and then laid her head on his chest. Draco’s hand came up to caress her hair a moment in response.“I’m glad you’re here too and I’m not alone here. I don’t pity you but I understand a bit. I know I’d do anything for my parents even though they hate me they are still my parents. But I don’t think I could murder a good person anything but that and you’re not weak and you’re a better man than your Father will ever be because you know what’s right and what’s wrong and no one is perfect.”
Hermione went silent after these words and they both stood there together just for the moment holding each other. Wordlessly Draco took her hand and they walked back towards the hut together and they sat down on the bed.
He caressed her face and looked at her before leaning in and kissing her gently a moment then he removed his shirt and lay down and wrapped his arms around her closed his eyes and whispered in her ear.. “Just let me hold you like this a bit, it’s enough and we’re both knackered a bit so let’s go to sleep and figure it out in the morning Hermione okay?”“Alright but let me change into something else as I don’t want to sleep in this dress okay Draco?”
Hermione asked this as she wriggled a moment and got up out of his embrace and went to her trunk. To his surprise she untied the sash and let the dress fall to her feet and she didn’t care he was watching her get undressed. She went sans a bra and for a moment he just looked his fill at her breasts.“Is that what you are wearing to bed?”
He asked as she had just put a t shirt over herself that fell to just above her thighs and she came back over and lay next to him.“Yes, I mean normally I sleep naked it feels best that way but I figure for now this is alright. “
Draco nodded as he got up and removed his shorts and to Hermione’s surprise he removed the underpants as well and he gestured to her apparel.“If you sleep naked, take off your clothes. I promise I won’t do anything. You have a lovely body and I’d like to see you if I may? I also sleep nude as it feels better like you said and it’s a bit warm here so don’t be ashamed. “
Hermione for a moment just bit her lip and looked at him. She tried to keep her eyes fixed on his face but found herself looking him over slowly. She licked her lips as they felt a bit dry as she looked back up at him. Draco was not ashamed as he lay on the bed on his back with his hands pillowing his head and watched her.
Hermione’s hands shook as she stood up and she removed the t shirt and then hooked her thumbs into the sides of her knickers and for a moment hesitated. Slowly she let them fall down her hips and kicked them off onto the floor and went to lie down on her side.
Draco turned her and laid her head down on his chest and kissed her forehead simply after moving the cover over them.“You’re more beautiful than I ever imagined Hermione. Let’s rest and talk about this in the morning.”
Draco then closed his eyes and began to fall asleep. Hermione however for the moment just lay awake with her head on his chest and listened to his breathing and heart beat begin to even out. She turned her head slightly to look at his face and smiled quietly before she closed her eyes and too succumbed to sleep.