Post by Alexa Raven on Jun 8, 2012 8:02:06 GMT -5
Hermione's hands were wrapped around her knees as she for a moment pondered what she was going to do now. She knew that this year was going to be difficult. She also knew that she still had feelings for the Potions Master despite telling herself he meant nothing at all. She wondered when she herself had become so masochistic, When had she deemed herself better than him really? Why did she just allow herself to hurt this way as if she enjoyed the suffering.
I must be mental, I must have finally cracked and any day now they will come for me with the butterfly net and take me to St Mongo's.
Hermione had this thought in her mind as she got up and decided she wanted to think a bit. She thought nothing of the fact it was night and a full moon as she decided a walk by the Lake would calm her inner struggle a bit. It had always worked in the past at least and so she got up and brushed off the sodden earth and twigs that were at the base of the tree and on her nightdress and then she walked out towards the lake. As she did so she did not notice Draco sitting under the tree as he was staring at the Lake thinking.
Draco was silent as he heard a twig snap but didn't move when he saw her walking by looking at the lake and for a moment he took in the sight before him. Her hair was down around her waist in a plat of chestnut curls. He knew that she had not seen him as she walked barefoot towards the Lake and he wondered if she was thinking of him. He sighed to himself unable to not watch the beauty in front of him and felt his heart ache as the memories of their last year of school came back to him in a rush.
He stood up as he saw her walk to the lake's edge and he closed his eyes a moment. Despite all that happened to them, Despite their love for each other it hadn't been enough. Time had taught him that, Fate had become a cruel mistress indeed.
In a heartbeat he had to decide if he wanted to really let his heart out again like this. He had grown to hide his heart and knew that the witch that still owned it was in front of him, She was in thought and he knew it from her expression as she stopped and went to sit it seemed on the lakes edge. He wondered if she was too remembering their last year here at the school as he was. He wondered if she was as miserable as he was. He wondered a great many things as he looked at her.
He knew she had grown more beautiful like a fine wine that was aged. His love for her more potent and all it took to seem to erase the years of pain and hurt was a single glance at her now. He saw the years had been good to her really. A little grey in her hair but then again it was expected. She was still beautiful, She was still slender and she hadn't changed much really. He wondered if he was being a perverted old man by watching her like he was.
Draco chuckled at that as he shook his head. A perverted young man in an old sort of way really. He, they weren't middle aged yet after all really. They were still young and though he knew it embarassed Scorpius to no end, He still considered himself a cool and hip parent. He wasn't old neither was Hermione they were Thirty-one not ancient and wizards and witches did live to be over a hundred after all.
For a moment he ran a hand through his silvery blond locks as it fell on his collarbone now. He knew he needed a decent haircut but for now he was wearing it tied back with a black ribbon as was proper. He resisted a smirk as he thought about the old days. When he thought about how one woman became his world and how in a moment in time she had been his. He wanted it again of course. Wanted his wife back but until that moment he realized he had been too stubborn to go after her. He should have and though hind sight was 20/20,he knew now that he couldn't let her walk out of his life again. He knew that he'd die if that happened, this time it would kill him literally as he knew that he couldn't stay away from her anymore.
He noticed she didn't wear her wedding ring anymore not that that was a surprise. He still wore his as he looked at the gold and silver band and he just relaxed. He wondered if she had moved on with one of those annoying French men. The thought that she was with someone else seemed to unnerve him as he thought about his daughter a moment. He wondered if she was calling another man Daddy or at least if her mum had a lover or boyfriend.
He wondered how he was going to pretend to not be interested in his daughters life now that she was there in front of him. He knew that he was interested and he knew that he had not the opportunity to know his daughter due to her mother. It angered him a bit but still despite all of that,despite Hermione Malfoy's leaving him and yes dammit he still called her in his mind and heart Hermione Malfoy because she was his wife. Despite it all he could forgive her but not forget the pain that woman had caused him.
Pride for Caledonia swelling in his heart as he heard her sorted Slytherin. It seemed almost fitting as he would be able to get to know her finally after ten years of separation. He knew fate again had made it so each would know their children. Fate made his son become a Gryffindor and he was actually proud of that. That Scorpius would make real friends hopefully as well as Hermione would be able to spend time with him. He knew that it had made his heart stop when he had seen both of his children look and smirk like his own smirk. He was proud of them no matter what and loved them.
Draco wondered what Hermione was thinking still to that very day. What had made her leave him and their son,take their baby girl and just seem to leave the face of the Earth. He had of course searched for them for two years before giving up on his wife and daughter. He had looked everywhere he could think of, Written her countless posts and gotten them all back unopened. He was left with a broken heart and if it hadn't been for Scorpius and the fact he needed him, he knew he'd not have survived at all.
Sure like most couples they argued at times but never before had it been something to cause them not to make up. He had been surprised when she had left him and taken Callie. He knew that he had missed his little girl so much. He wondered how he could get closer to her knowing that Hermione had perhaps told her he was dead or something, That he was gone at least. Did Caledora Rose Malfoy now Granger hate him possibly? Did she even know he was her Father or that he was alive even?
Hermione was in her musings as she made it to the lake. She looked at the silvery sheen of the waters surface as she thought about her life. She wondered if she had stayed, If they had tried and work it out that last time would she be as miserable as she was now? She wondered a great many things as she put her feet into the water and smiled despite the pain in her heart for the moment. She was in her second home, At Hogwarts and yet she wasn't as pleased as she would have liked to be.
She wondered what she did to the powers that be to deserve to have to be reminded yet again what a smarmy bastard her husband was. Yes they were still married despite the fact she had not been with him in ten years. Hermione wondered if he had moved on with his life, She knew she hadn't that is she had someone but he fell short of what Draco made her feel. Any man would fall short of the great Draco Malfoy and as arrogant as that sounded, it was the truth no one made her feel like her husband could. No one could even come close.
She sometimes wondered if she was being fair at all to the man who was her sometimes lover and confidant. She knew that he had stuck by her for the last ten years and was more a best friend then her lover though they did that too every so often. She knew it was more of a comfort thing between them not a love match.
He also loved another and she was gone to him, They had comforted each other coming together when either called and needed companionship. Though over the years she wondered if he loved her since he always seemed to treat her like she was the love of his life. It had been bittersweet in a way to tell him of her plans. She had suffered in her mind his reaction. But as always with consideration he kissed her forehead and told her to go for it, Encouraged her even to pursue the position knowing what an honor it was for her to take.
Hermione had not believed she was being an adulteress because she and Draco were after all separated and had been for a decade. She knew that he was no doubt off with his own sluts after all. She knew that he was still as handsome as always and knew that women would line up.
She knew that her eyes had finally opened up after a three years of their marriage and knew that it had been the toughest decision of her life to leave Draco. She knew that however it had to be done, He probably now had a harem of women to service his needs now. She wondered if he had moved on too. She knew he was wearing his wedding ring still.
She wrapped her arms around her waist as she looked at the lake now and remembered the last time she had felt like this, Felt like her feelings for him were twisted but yet still strong that she couldn't help herself. She looked at the ring on a chain that fell over her heart and studied it. She had never taken it off in any form. She still wore it on the chain to remind her of him. Not that having Callie had diminished him much since she was the spitting mirror image of her father except female.
Alright so she was still in love with her husband big bloody deal as long as he didn't figure that out and try and hurt her again she was happy. She knew it wasn't fair to be in love with a ghost, she had over the years made believe he was just that.
It had been easier of course than admitting that she had messed up hers and Caledonia 's lives by leaving. She wondered many nights if she should have stayed and worked it out. She wondered so much it drove her crazy at times. She knew no one could take the place of Draco or the void in her life without him.
Even now as she looked up at the castle a moment her eyes froze at the familiar tree and she could make out silvery blonde hair and she knew those eyes were looking at her. Eyes that she was lost in,eyes of her husband and yet having him so close also made her feel like he was so much more farther away then he ever was.
Liquid silver depths like the shine on the lake in the full moon light,She felt herself wanting to drown in them as she could in the lake's watery abyss. She gasped as she went to stand and fell into the water, for a moment she didn't fight the water wanting to drag her downward as the heavy dressing gown got wet and it began to get heavier.
I must be mental, I must have finally cracked and any day now they will come for me with the butterfly net and take me to St Mongo's.
Hermione had this thought in her mind as she got up and decided she wanted to think a bit. She thought nothing of the fact it was night and a full moon as she decided a walk by the Lake would calm her inner struggle a bit. It had always worked in the past at least and so she got up and brushed off the sodden earth and twigs that were at the base of the tree and on her nightdress and then she walked out towards the lake. As she did so she did not notice Draco sitting under the tree as he was staring at the Lake thinking.
Draco was silent as he heard a twig snap but didn't move when he saw her walking by looking at the lake and for a moment he took in the sight before him. Her hair was down around her waist in a plat of chestnut curls. He knew that she had not seen him as she walked barefoot towards the Lake and he wondered if she was thinking of him. He sighed to himself unable to not watch the beauty in front of him and felt his heart ache as the memories of their last year of school came back to him in a rush.
He stood up as he saw her walk to the lake's edge and he closed his eyes a moment. Despite all that happened to them, Despite their love for each other it hadn't been enough. Time had taught him that, Fate had become a cruel mistress indeed.
In a heartbeat he had to decide if he wanted to really let his heart out again like this. He had grown to hide his heart and knew that the witch that still owned it was in front of him, She was in thought and he knew it from her expression as she stopped and went to sit it seemed on the lakes edge. He wondered if she was too remembering their last year here at the school as he was. He wondered if she was as miserable as he was. He wondered a great many things as he looked at her.
He knew she had grown more beautiful like a fine wine that was aged. His love for her more potent and all it took to seem to erase the years of pain and hurt was a single glance at her now. He saw the years had been good to her really. A little grey in her hair but then again it was expected. She was still beautiful, She was still slender and she hadn't changed much really. He wondered if he was being a perverted old man by watching her like he was.
Draco chuckled at that as he shook his head. A perverted young man in an old sort of way really. He, they weren't middle aged yet after all really. They were still young and though he knew it embarassed Scorpius to no end, He still considered himself a cool and hip parent. He wasn't old neither was Hermione they were Thirty-one not ancient and wizards and witches did live to be over a hundred after all.
For a moment he ran a hand through his silvery blond locks as it fell on his collarbone now. He knew he needed a decent haircut but for now he was wearing it tied back with a black ribbon as was proper. He resisted a smirk as he thought about the old days. When he thought about how one woman became his world and how in a moment in time she had been his. He wanted it again of course. Wanted his wife back but until that moment he realized he had been too stubborn to go after her. He should have and though hind sight was 20/20,he knew now that he couldn't let her walk out of his life again. He knew that he'd die if that happened, this time it would kill him literally as he knew that he couldn't stay away from her anymore.
He noticed she didn't wear her wedding ring anymore not that that was a surprise. He still wore his as he looked at the gold and silver band and he just relaxed. He wondered if she had moved on with one of those annoying French men. The thought that she was with someone else seemed to unnerve him as he thought about his daughter a moment. He wondered if she was calling another man Daddy or at least if her mum had a lover or boyfriend.
He wondered how he was going to pretend to not be interested in his daughters life now that she was there in front of him. He knew that he was interested and he knew that he had not the opportunity to know his daughter due to her mother. It angered him a bit but still despite all of that,despite Hermione Malfoy's leaving him and yes dammit he still called her in his mind and heart Hermione Malfoy because she was his wife. Despite it all he could forgive her but not forget the pain that woman had caused him.
Pride for Caledonia swelling in his heart as he heard her sorted Slytherin. It seemed almost fitting as he would be able to get to know her finally after ten years of separation. He knew fate again had made it so each would know their children. Fate made his son become a Gryffindor and he was actually proud of that. That Scorpius would make real friends hopefully as well as Hermione would be able to spend time with him. He knew that it had made his heart stop when he had seen both of his children look and smirk like his own smirk. He was proud of them no matter what and loved them.
Draco wondered what Hermione was thinking still to that very day. What had made her leave him and their son,take their baby girl and just seem to leave the face of the Earth. He had of course searched for them for two years before giving up on his wife and daughter. He had looked everywhere he could think of, Written her countless posts and gotten them all back unopened. He was left with a broken heart and if it hadn't been for Scorpius and the fact he needed him, he knew he'd not have survived at all.
Sure like most couples they argued at times but never before had it been something to cause them not to make up. He had been surprised when she had left him and taken Callie. He knew that he had missed his little girl so much. He wondered how he could get closer to her knowing that Hermione had perhaps told her he was dead or something, That he was gone at least. Did Caledora Rose Malfoy now Granger hate him possibly? Did she even know he was her Father or that he was alive even?
Hermione was in her musings as she made it to the lake. She looked at the silvery sheen of the waters surface as she thought about her life. She wondered if she had stayed, If they had tried and work it out that last time would she be as miserable as she was now? She wondered a great many things as she put her feet into the water and smiled despite the pain in her heart for the moment. She was in her second home, At Hogwarts and yet she wasn't as pleased as she would have liked to be.
She wondered what she did to the powers that be to deserve to have to be reminded yet again what a smarmy bastard her husband was. Yes they were still married despite the fact she had not been with him in ten years. Hermione wondered if he had moved on with his life, She knew she hadn't that is she had someone but he fell short of what Draco made her feel. Any man would fall short of the great Draco Malfoy and as arrogant as that sounded, it was the truth no one made her feel like her husband could. No one could even come close.
She sometimes wondered if she was being fair at all to the man who was her sometimes lover and confidant. She knew that he had stuck by her for the last ten years and was more a best friend then her lover though they did that too every so often. She knew it was more of a comfort thing between them not a love match.
He also loved another and she was gone to him, They had comforted each other coming together when either called and needed companionship. Though over the years she wondered if he loved her since he always seemed to treat her like she was the love of his life. It had been bittersweet in a way to tell him of her plans. She had suffered in her mind his reaction. But as always with consideration he kissed her forehead and told her to go for it, Encouraged her even to pursue the position knowing what an honor it was for her to take.
Hermione had not believed she was being an adulteress because she and Draco were after all separated and had been for a decade. She knew that he was no doubt off with his own sluts after all. She knew that he was still as handsome as always and knew that women would line up.
She knew that her eyes had finally opened up after a three years of their marriage and knew that it had been the toughest decision of her life to leave Draco. She knew that however it had to be done, He probably now had a harem of women to service his needs now. She wondered if he had moved on too. She knew he was wearing his wedding ring still.
She wrapped her arms around her waist as she looked at the lake now and remembered the last time she had felt like this, Felt like her feelings for him were twisted but yet still strong that she couldn't help herself. She looked at the ring on a chain that fell over her heart and studied it. She had never taken it off in any form. She still wore it on the chain to remind her of him. Not that having Callie had diminished him much since she was the spitting mirror image of her father except female.
Alright so she was still in love with her husband big bloody deal as long as he didn't figure that out and try and hurt her again she was happy. She knew it wasn't fair to be in love with a ghost, she had over the years made believe he was just that.
It had been easier of course than admitting that she had messed up hers and Caledonia 's lives by leaving. She wondered many nights if she should have stayed and worked it out. She wondered so much it drove her crazy at times. She knew no one could take the place of Draco or the void in her life without him.
Even now as she looked up at the castle a moment her eyes froze at the familiar tree and she could make out silvery blonde hair and she knew those eyes were looking at her. Eyes that she was lost in,eyes of her husband and yet having him so close also made her feel like he was so much more farther away then he ever was.
Liquid silver depths like the shine on the lake in the full moon light,She felt herself wanting to drown in them as she could in the lake's watery abyss. She gasped as she went to stand and fell into the water, for a moment she didn't fight the water wanting to drag her downward as the heavy dressing gown got wet and it began to get heavier.