Post by Alexa Raven on Mar 12, 2013 11:36:49 GMT -5
Today is March 12th 2013. It has been 12 days since I stopped smoking cigarettes. It's been a bit difficult and I am going through a bit of anger or crabbiness. Though sadly I find myself at times snarking at my daughter. I find myself wanting to eat altoids constantly.I go through a container a day now a days in fact.
I guess the hardest part is when I take the dogs outside and I stand there and see my uncles ashtray. It's hard to not just light up one of his butts.(Yes it's disgusting but I've imagined myself doing that) It is hard to stand there but I have to take the dogs out.
Latley i have been just emptying his ashtray and to my credit as well as I am proud I have not light one up. Though I feel stressed alot now a days and so I have been trying to work out and drink water when i feel the urges. I can tell you I am tired and i have to pee alot. Your probaly thinking why am i sharing this? I guess I need to talk about it. Smoking is bad. I know I've been doing it since i was eight years old. Yes I said eight.
Yes thirty years with the occasional breaks for having children(No I did not smoke when I was pregnant) Why do i keep going back to it? I don't know maybe because everyone i know smokes? Maybe because this world is not a happy shinin place. All the above?
Anyways I am just trying to cope with this and relax a bit.
After thirty years of it it's time to stop. I feel tired from working out so much but i can semi smell things better now. and I've only gained five pounds which is good.
So that's it.that's what's going on with me right now at this moment.
Blessed Be! <3 Alexa
