Post by Alexa Raven on Nov 12, 2012 11:14:28 GMT -5
It's been awhile hasn't it? I am just so... well things are looking up but still very much feel like i was punched in the gut and had my heart ripped out as well as my pride and pretty much so much has happened in such a short time.
First of all i would like to say thank you to everyone who has continued to love me and believe in me and wants nothing but my friendship. I love you for that.
On a positive note i feel like I can rise above this appretion and can see the silver lining on this dark cloud that surrounds me.
I have been struggling so long and now I can see it so clearly. my personal life it was not very good even before I became homeless for awhile. My kids are my one constant strength and happiness. I now see so much more when i was able to step back take a breath and realize that my world my in real life world was horrible at times.
I am not about to go and blame my now ex husband, because it wasn't him for the most part. he is afterall just human and we both had our issues to deal with.
My marriage unfortunately or whatever a handfasting is, it wasn't to last but i still love the man and his faults but we are not happy together. William and I just together in the same house doesn't work anymore. It just has become so that hen we do get together or shall I say live together we fight anymore.
He is still my best friend and I his and we mutually agreed on a seperation, we still love eachother but the situations and life kicking our asses really just made things difficult. We parted as friends, in time who knows but atleast we still talk and maybe it's a good thing as we kinda before rushed things when we gott handfasted..
Anyways this is suppose to be a update on my projects or journal etc. Alright so here it is...
Alexa has nothing at the moment. She meaning i, have nothing new to present yet. I know that it's probally going to piss people off me on this hiatus as it were but i have a few ducks to put in a row first.
I've made my list and some are done others not quite yet..
My kids are in school and happy and both of them are on honor roll. I am so proud of my babies!!!!
My son he is adjusting very well to highschool here in Pennsylvania and is doing very good. He misses his friends back at home but someday I hope to beable to take the kids down to Miami and to let them see their uncle and aunt and their friends again. Maybe this summer...
As for the rest i am trying to straighten out so many things and it's not easy but I can do it.
As for the site i am working on making it look a bit prettier or atleast trying something new. Change can be a good thing.. So, so far i like it. the pictures etc. But i feel like it's not easy for the guests and members to navigate on so I am working on fixing it a bit..
I mis my youtube friends and my Hex friends so much.. You hsave no bloody idea how much!
anyways gotta go have to get my inspirations going and working on stuff. i am thinking of transcribbing videos or atleast maybe writint them out while i can't make videos. it atleast keeps me going and doing something productive atleast.
Miss you all love you all and i hope atleast this makes atleast one person smile
Blessed be and yes i still have faith in the Goddess even now though at times iw ant to curse her... i still am holding on to my faith.
Godess bless. <3 Alexa.